sometimes, it's also fake. you won't even know when it's real & when it's actually fake.

conclusion, you can also say it's all a liar.

bcos, idk who to trust anymore.
sometimes, i can't talk to you it's not bcos i don't want too, kay? sometimes it's not within my limits too. i too, am a human, a teenage girl. i too have a mum. i'm still a girl, not an adult okay. i can't make all the decisions. if a friendship is based ONLY on communication, i think that we might as well not have this 'friendship' we have. if this communication does not exist then it wld also mean that this friendship wld be gone. POOOF! gone like the wind, right?

next issue is also abt friendship. hmm, friendship has been giving me loads of trouble lately too huh.

dearest friend,

yes, i love you. i love my other friend too. we practically spent our childhoods tgt, spending 6 years in kcp, doing almost everything tgt & in th most nonsensical manner ever. lately i haven't been able to go out w my twinne & you just had to come inbetween us. oh well, maybe my mummy was right, maybe you are that bad & mean. maybe i shldn't have trusted you time & time agn despite my mummy telling me time & time agn. maybe it is all true, maybe i was just too blind to see the truth huh. you know what? you've changed. i guess as time goes by, everyone changes. including me, i knw i've changed, & obviously everyone else wld too. i won't blame you, bcos it was my choice. i choose to believe in you & our friendship of almost 7 years. i guess it's all just my fault to not be wary. it's just my fault to trust ppl to easily & that's the reason why i'm hurt. it's my fault that i'm crying for th 2nd time in my 13 years on earth for friendship. yes, 2nd time, no lying. 1st was when i was p1/p2 when i was still immature, when Genevieve & i really hated one other. i admit, i was immature & foolish. but after almost 5-6 years, i have nvr dropped a single teardrop for friendship anymore, until today.

i guess all these things was brought upon myself. it was my fault that i cldn't text you cos i didn't have unlimited sms like you all. it was my fault that i trusted you so much. it was all my fault.

& no, i'm not crying while typing these.. i've gotten over it. i'll be strong, even w/o friends like you. bcos of you all, i've learnt to be alert & learnt to see who my true friends really are. in fact, i wanna say a big thank you for showing me your true colours. i'll still love you, my dear friend. no matter what, but it's just up to you if you'll do the same..

i'll be strong.

-chickenduckk!